The Search

I've lived in South Carolina for a total of 14 weeks.

Before I moved, my life was full of excitement. I spent more time out of the house than in it. That's right- social butterfly status times ten. I had friends around every corner. Really. There wasn't one person that I didn't know, or that didn't know me. And if that wasn't the case, I didn't have a problem making conversation to change that.

I had promise. I had possibilities and connections.

WELL... That's surely changed. My life here is consumed of cleaning and doing homework. My typical weekend consists of sitting at home and watching tv. Not very exciting. But, the problem is, I enjoy it! I mean, I've only been invited out with people once, but I hated it. My day would have been better if I just continued sitting at home writing a paper. ...SO PATHETIC.

When I left Arizona, people kept telling me: "Don't forget who you are. Don't lose yourself."
I thought that advice was stupid. But, coming here, I've realized that I really have lost who I was. I'm not the same person at all. So far, there's only been one person I've talked with that I feel I can be myself around... and he's not even in this state! Let alone this side of the country! (But that's a post for another day... ;) )

I look at other people who have moved and they seem to have a TON of friends where they are. I haven't even seemed to find ONE real friend here... I mean, I talk to people. Don't get me wrong! I'm definitely not a loner! But I don't have anyone to REALLY talk to and spend time with.

"It takes time..."
Well, I'm pretty much at the halfway point of my time here. I don't think the friend status is going to change any time soon. ;) But we'll see, won't we?

-Molly